So it's 2016.
I created this in 2012.
A lot has changed.
So much has changed.
In 2012 we moved to St. Anthony.
In 2013 I graduated from college.
In 2014 we moved back to Rexburg.
In 2014 we had our daughter on February 8th.
In 2014 we moved in with family in California.
In 2015 we had our son on September 11th.
In 2015 my husband got a "real grown up I went school for that" job.
Other things that have happened since 2012-
We have had 2 dogs that we had to give away.
My parents split up.
We remodeled 2 bathrooms and redid all the floors in my mom's house.
My dad moved to Washington... we don't really talk anymore.
We are living in a remodeled garage.
I haven't seen half of my stuff in two years.
I share a room with my husband, my 2 year old daughter, and my 6 month old son.
I haven't had my own kitchen in 2 years.
My children have had colds every two weeks since last October.
Besides our student loans, we recently paid off all our other debts.
I haven't had a best friend (with someone besides the people I share a room with) since 2011.
I have like 400 Sq ft that is hard to keep clean, mainly because between the 4 of us, we have accumulated so much stuff.
Sometimes I think I need a job.
Sometimes I'm so glad I don't have a job.
Sometimes I'm ready to go into thousands of dollars of debt so we can have our own home.
Most times I am so thankful we are getting close to being completely out of debt.
Sometimes I want to scream I am so tired.
Sometimes I stay up later than my kids and husband just to be me.
Sometimes I feel like a baby sitter to my own children because there are so many people that are around that like to parent my children.
I'm not complaining.
This is just my life.
It's hard.
Some days I feel like I can't make it another day like this.
And then the next day I do.
Because there are really great parts too.
I love being a mom.
I really enjoy my calling at church.
I am so grateful for family taking us in while we didn't have a job.
I am so grateful for family helping us while our job can't afford to pay for an apartment in the SF Bay Area.
I am so grateful for my hilariously smart little girl.
I am so grateful for my ever giggly baby boy.
I am so grateful for the hard work my husband does.
We have been in a better position the last 4 months than we have since we got married.
I enjoy living so close to family so my children get to know our parents.
Being back in our home towns has been comforting during this hard time.
We have had so many miracles in our life.
I've started reading my scriptures more regularly.
I feel a lot closer to my Heavenly Father.
I think we've done a lot to help others while we've been here.
I think we've grown into stronger people.
It's hard.
But we are so blessed.
So much has changed.
We are not the same people anymore.
But that's a good thing.
Change is good.
I just hope more changes are coming...
Soon.
